Wednesday, September 30, 2015

It is Better to Look Up!

I feel today how Daph looks in this picture.  I'm sure in all actuality she was thinking, "Could you please give me the Oreos, Twizzlers and Skittles you have brought for movie treats.  I need them NOW."  But to me, her face looks  tired, uncertain, maybe a little overwhelmed.  Thankfully, Dafferdil go to to sleep after hours of torturing me and other moviegoers (let's be honest, it was pretty much just me getting tortured and kicked in the head by a baby trying to go to sleep).  But me, I don't get to go to sleep.  Have to face each new day, and I want to face each new day, just with more hope, more joy, and more energy.  So many challenges to overcome.  So many little details that have to be taken care of.  And so little time.  
 I did go the the temple and get re-energized and refocused on what really matters.  Being able to go where it is quiet and calm, just stepping back from the piles and mounds of crazy that I have to manage in my life, just gives me the healthiest dose of perspective and hope and the feeling of strength that I can keep pushing on and that I should be finding the happiness in every day instead of focusing on what is/could be going wrong.  Also, took my man to dinner last night with some gift cards, and we talked some more, and that did seem to help.  It's just once we are back in the thick of our lives, it is so easy to forget what really matters and is of most worth.  It's a constant struggle for me.

But, with some renewed vim and vigor today, it has been going well, and I like this picture of the clear blue sky and sunlight playing in the treetops on a walk that Daph and I took on an early Saturday morning this summer.  Looking up and hoping and dreaming is way better than looking at my shoelaces.

Monday, September 28, 2015

Nobel Peace Prize???

Got a call last Thursday from the Summerwind STEM counselor.  You must realize I have had 1 child who should probably start paying the counselor for therapy sessions, i.e., my mom is having a baby, can I handle this?  I feel kind of sad today, better go to the counselor's office.  I think I was just raised to suck it up, whereas we are more soft and fluffy round here.  Anyway, I was a little worried, BUT it was just to let me know Ben would be surprised as student of the month the next day which is...AWESOME.  To me it is a big deal that even with the speech struggles he's had, he has pulled off being a good friend and a good student rather than acting out, getting angry and frustrated with the extra challenges his brain and muscles have decided to throw at him.  Needless to say, when my work scheduler totally ignored my urgent request for 30 minutes to an hour off which I would make up whenever she wanted, I was sending some unpleasant vibes her way.  I will have a special essay on work someday, but no point in burning bridges now.  I decided I would just clock out, run over, come back and to heck with the consequences.  If SHE met my son, she'd get it.  It's just that since I work from home and my supervisor/scheduler don't see my face, they forget I'm human...just like I forget they have souls and hearts.  So, really bad pictures, but the least blurry one is the back of Ben's head.  He's wearing purple!  He had no idea idea, even as the principal spelled out his name, reading a comment for each letter.  Then he got high 5's from his class on the way back to his spot.  
 The N - that one stumped me.  Actually several of the letters.  Ben (so far all my boys, actually), lead secret school lives.  Lily would come home and still often does and just verbally throw up every little detail about her day.  At times, it was overwhelming, but I knew everything.  The boys, whelp, you can interrogating them with all your might or casually try to start a dialogue and the response is about 3 words.  That N, though, his teacher said future Nobel Peace Prize winner.  I learned from his ward that he is a peacemaker in his class, a comedian, as well, who makes everyone laugh every day.  Wow, he is just blooming (can boys do that?  I now girls can.)
Side note:  It is fall, but it barely feels like fall.  It is hot, but hardly in AC and no heat, so we are raking in the dough on electricity and gas savings.  Freezing temps will come soon enough.  I have at least 2-4 kids who are bursting with excitement about Halloween.  I would be if I could nail down my husband to a costume theme that he can get excited about.  Sigh.

And lastly, such an unflattering photo.  I need contacts...if I can stand them...which I probably can't, but I really don't like glasses all the time.  Still, Lily and I went to General Women's Conference and listened to a 4 speakers.  It was VERY REFRESHING and just what I needed after a week that involved more tears and gnashing of teeth than I'd like to discuss.  And I braided Lily's hair as she laid on her head on my lap.  Attention spans can only go for so long, so we make the best of it for my 12 year old.  Every year, they also have random photo getup so you can take a photo for memories, and since they did pioneer trek this year for the older youth, they went with a pioneer theme.  I am glad I was not a traditional pioneer.  I do not like the look at all. . If I lived in that time, I would go for Southern Belle...except maybe head north before the Civil War...or to California, but I would always have the best dresses and go to balls and stuff.  I am kidding again; I am sure I would have been poor working class and desperate to head west whether for my religion or a fresh new start or adventure...just like all our ancestors did.


Friday, September 25, 2015

Can you tell school started?

I actually pulled off a weekly post for, what...4 or 5 weeks, and then BAM!  A lot has happened, naturally, with all the bodies in this house.  Here's just a taste because who wants to try to write about 6 weeks of glorious regular days?  Not me...condensed versions are best sometimes.  In no particular order:

1.  Preschool.  Why do moms have to take pictures when all you want is to see and to meet and to do and to play?
 2.  Cleaning...not nearly enough, but here is documented evidence that some took place.
3.  Back to school feast.  This years was about bees.  We should be busy little bees in all the best ways.
 4.  Lots and lots of stealing the siblings' things after they leave them lying around within reach...destruction of said things is likely naturally going to happen.
 5.  Building train tracks.  It's Shawn's jam right now.
6.  Back to school survival of first day.  Middle school start was rough for my Amazon woman, but she is starting to, dare I say, thrive...at least a little.
 7.  SO MANY 1-YEAR-OLD-MADE messes.  So, so, so many.  Living up, this little one is.
 8.  Some beautiful recharging and calorie burning walks.
 9.  A lot of naps, none of them by me, darnit.
 10.  Birthdays!!!  I captured Lily's on my real camera...and some rather incriminating videos of her party; however, here is a lovely shot of this darling duo making my birthday treat.  They did well!
 11.  See, I said, SO MANY MESSES!